24th January, a day to celebrate B-day of someone who lived enough time to make memories that will never die, inside myself. Isn’t this amazing?
Some time ago, I decided not to thing and get distressed on the day he went for good. I decided to use his B-day, instead, to make the ritual of recalling his time of being among us - 5 years is a lifetime, specially when one can be so intense! All by myself (mums do things that only for them it makes sense!) I went to the heaven recalling moments of joy, went to hell recalling the loss of him, but by the end the joy is still the one that is the most intense, my dearest Matheus.
As always, I do something concrete to be recalled together, later on. This time, tossed my mind my new home, we are preparing for retirement, and I thought on the changes on my pics on a new wall. And, guess what? Well, you may think there is a sort of a coincidence going on, serendipity, in which I am getting all this help from the universe! Or, may believe, as I do, this is the complex adaptive system of my neural connections within and on the collective unconscious !! I simply looked and found connections with one of my most beloved musics
http://youtu.be/2zx6j4vI8lE
To wrap up such an intense day I came home with a bunch of flowers and a cake…
Some time ago, I decided not to thing and get distressed on the day he went for good. I decided to use his B-day, instead, to make the ritual of recalling his time of being among us - 5 years is a lifetime, specially when one can be so intense! All by myself (mums do things that only for them it makes sense!) I went to the heaven recalling moments of joy, went to hell recalling the loss of him, but by the end the joy is still the one that is the most intense, my dearest Matheus.
As always, I do something concrete to be recalled together, later on. This time, tossed my mind my new home, we are preparing for retirement, and I thought on the changes on my pics on a new wall. And, guess what? Well, you may think there is a sort of a coincidence going on, serendipity, in which I am getting all this help from the universe! Or, may believe, as I do, this is the complex adaptive system of my neural connections within and on the collective unconscious !! I simply looked and found connections with one of my most beloved musics
http://youtu.be/2zx6j4vI8lE
Happy B-Day Matheus! And for a drink nothing better than the South brazilian’s tradition of a chimarrao!. After all, it is freezing outside! (8 F = 13 C below zero) here in Michigan.
5 years from the time I wrote the above. Many things have happened; many things, indeed! But the memory of you my boy has not changed a bit,as no new memories of you have been registered in my mind, to be rearrenged! I have to deal with time passing by, looking inside myself to recall the warm feeling of your hugs...
Should we meet again ? Oh God, I would so much love to give you a long hug, look into your eyes, hear your laugh, kiss you once more.. Love you so much, my boy, forever and ever.
And, today, while remembering some moments, I have a chimarrao all by myself, listening nursery rhymes.....
Oh and again in Michigan, temperature 28 F (-2 C)
https://youtu.be/W-P8UvOwvrY
Should we meet again ? Oh God, I would so much love to give you a long hug, look into your eyes, hear your laugh, kiss you once more.. Love you so much, my boy, forever and ever.
And, today, while remembering some moments, I have a chimarrao all by myself, listening nursery rhymes.....
Oh and again in Michigan, temperature 28 F (-2 C)
https://youtu.be/W-P8UvOwvrY
Hah…interesting: tossed means intoxication (not bad for the meaning; but in fact what I meant was “crossed”…
ReplyDeleteHappy B-Day Matheus!
ReplyDeleteThanks Pri. How is the weather in Ithaca? Here we are well below frozen, it’s snowing. Of course, it’s winter time, isn’t it?
DeleteLove you!